I dont know what just happened, but Ricky and I just had a falling-out. I dont know what this means yet and I have until 2 to make a decission if I still want to be with him or not. Hell of a way to spend a Christmas Eve.

I just feel hes holding me back again. Hes very controlling and I dont really like that. I want to go out and meet people that have similar interests to me, but he doent seem to like that idea. Damnit. You only live once. Where do I want to go?

Do I want to throw 3.5 years away? What will it bring? I know with great risk comes great reward (sometimes).  I hate being in this situation. I really HATE it.

If I leave, will I ever find love again?

All
This
Shit
That
Life
Brings
FUCK!